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Thursday, July 1, 2010

As you keep moving, I get more still.

Now it seems like my life is stuck in a stupid cycle already. Where money will always be tight, and my stress will always be the same, with minor breaks.

Somebody give me a fucking break.

I'm never gonna get to where I want to be, I'm never gonna be what you want me to be, and I'm never going to be the person I'm supposed to be.
I need a change, I need to be happy for once, but I can't.

I have no hobbies anymore, I have nothing. I shut off communications with people when I get too close to them because it just becomes too much of a stress. Sorry.
I'm tired of waiting to be happy.
This is the best time to end it, when nobody is really watching, or paying attention. People only care when you talk about whats wrong, nobody ever really tries to see whats up, and digs to see how you are.

Some people say they want to get to know me, but they stop short, and give up. I hate that.BOOM.
Deja vu.

It sucked.

This is a long one.
Ok it's done. Phew.

I'm just empty now, like a drone. I've got nothing to say to anybody, and it doesn't even bother me.
Just putting along.
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11 comments:

  1. the last line is intently poetic. my heart just came ejeculate of rainbows and a pantheon of emotion

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  2. Stay strong man. Fuck everybody, work hard.

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  3. everyone has their phases of loneliness. just gotta push through and hope for brighter days.

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  4. There is always bitterness on the way to sweetness.

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  5. hang in there, man. nothing is as bad as it seems after a few days...

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